Love~Faith~Hope

Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies) by Chris Tomlin This song hit my heart early in the morning today. Yesterday was a bad day for me to know the truth about my dad keeping lying to family, and I'm so disappointed in him until I made up my mind that I'm no longer to tread him just as my dad whom I used to know, who was there for me when I was in trouble, who cared when I cried in tears because of my heart pain. Poor me, I want to scream out loud to let this pain go away, but I couldn't even pour it out from my heart.The wound is very very deep.Moreover, I want to become someone who can fix this thing or say a right word to totally change my dad's heart, but I just realize that I couldn't have thing done on my way. I talked to my mom, I was trying to change her heart by challenging to stop mourning and keep moving forward without dad, but what turns out is that I caused my mom to be in pain even more. I'm so hopeless at this point. Then this song caught my ...

You may curious about the topic, and I have explanation for it. Lately, I've been noticing in a life of Jacob from the book of Genesis. His story is very interested about who he is and how God worked with him. Surprisingly, I don't think that he was good enough to be the father of the nation, Israel, but God gave him this name. His household was in sin and in many big trouble, but God helped him and his household in many time. Yet people cause the trouble, God still look after them because of his grace and his marvelous plan. What shall we fear then? How can we worry about our future while we've seen a thousand times that God is at hand all the time? It's our human being that try to put thing in control, and sometimes we're waving because it's hardly to trust God when we get into a challenge situation. I used to say to myself "nope, I'm not going to worry"., but when the time comes, I do worry, I do curious how God will fix thing in my hands. But i...