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Wilderness

Have you ever wondered how many challenged you need to go through each year? What about your hope for future? Will it ever come true when it seemly nothing can make it happen?

I want to say that I'm good enough, I've been through many thing that I can stand firm and don't lose my mind. I don't care what happen in the future, for I know my God is able to do. I fail to totally trust that my circumstances is not a big deal. Once again, I have to encourage myself through the book of Philippians, for it talks about being rejoice. I admit how worry I am and try to work out in my own way. I saw a picture of myself building up such a strong mountain to conquer all the optical, but when I worshiped God during the Conference, I just realized my mountain become its optical for taking me to another level of trusting God.

God told me that he will make my mountain flat, and I'm in this wilderness, so that I'll realize who God is and how amazing he is. A big challenging for me right now is about the financial situation that keep me double minded about leaving my mission to work as other people. I knew deeply in my heart that wasn't God's calling to my life. He calls me to champion the young people for his kingdom through arts and dance, and I need to keep focusing on that. Errrr... I don't like my thoughts now, and I really need prayers that my attitude will change, my heart will be set for God's purpose and continue to stand firm in the calling that God has called me to do, and I totally work along side with God for his plan. I'm sorry God that I doubt about your ability and who you are.. I'm ready for the trip in this wilderness while I'm feeding by you, leading by you, and learning that you are my God. Help me to commit my single day to walk with you with my wholeheartedly.

If there is anyone who faces that same thing as me. Let's learn together who God is and don't be doubtful of how capable of our God.

God bless you!

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