It was my second time to sit and hear the news how heavy rain causes the flooding in many provinces of Thailand. People are suffered, and need help. I felt so sorry for those people who stuck in their houses, can't go anywhere, don't have food to eat, and can't work for a while. I really even feel bad when I heard people don't have enough to eat, but they still bringing what they have to the Bud-dish temple to do merit, for they thought the more they being faithful doing merit, the more this heavy rain and bad thing will surely go away. They don't know The One who is in control with the heavy rain, who can do the impossible thing, and the one whom they should ask for help.
Recently I've been listening to many story of bad thing in Thailand, and I felt like the more I hear it, the more I don't feel like this is my homeland, for I can't make any change in this country and I just have to bear all of that along with other Thai brothers and sisters; the big gap between the poor and the rich, or even people step over each other to achieve their goals. I can't believe that 50 thousand of Thai people have to bear with it no matter what. All these happens because they don't know The One who is just and merciful.
I felt like God wants me to turn this thought up side down by praying for a good thing to happen and believe that God is able. I can't look down upon my own country and my people, but I can make a different even it's very small impact, and I do believe that as I have a little faith which is small as a mustard seed, God is still able to use it for a big thing. God cares for his people and he adores his people even more than I can think of. So God, I really need to have this kind of heart for people who don't know Jesus Christ yet, and may you help me to pray and fight for the change of my country, for you're able and you're with us always. May your name be glorify.
During these intense 6 months of co-leading a YWAM training school, I have been learning and exploring tons of thing about who God is and about myself which I have to lay down myself in many ways. My intimate relationship with God has been developing since I took the FOCOS (Coaching Course with CMI), for I started to focus more on my quality time with God and learning to listen to him. In past 3 months, although there are so much works going on, I still learn to be still and know that God is God where I can't control any thing at all. Through this school, I wish I could be more prepared, the building would be perfect to run the school, all staffs would be ready to serve the school, and the students would learn and grow incredibly, but those are false expectations because God's plan and how he works in a whole group and individual are totally what we are experiencing now. There are tons of small thing occurs to make us discouraged, but I do learn to let thing go and depend on Go...

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