Grace that I'm not deserved

Since Bangkok was under water for quite a while, I was super busy with many emergency works and usual works that I have to get done. I didn't put any update on that, but I'm glad that God is working through YWAM Bangkok to bless those who were in need, and I'm sure that God bless us so much because where we are located in Bangkok, there is no flood. Praise God for that. Yesterday was a crazy day for me to hear about my family back home. When I visited my family, I was blessed because I felt love and care from my parents and how they treat one another, but to hear that my dad keep making my mom grief for his fair, then it causes me to be anger inside. During the small group time, we talked about Grace of God and whom we should give grace to. It's very difficult for me to say that I need to give grace to my dad, since he is the one who hurt me and the rest of his family. My anger keep bouncing back to me with unforgiven heart, and when I shared it to my small group and ask for prayers, I sensed that God is saying "I'm giving you my grace, so that you can give grace to your dad". It's a painful moment to admit that I'm a sinner also and I'm not deserved for God's grace, but God still give his grace to me while I'm not deserved. I believe this is a breakthrough in my heart, for there are many people around me that I keep holding my anger and unforgiveness toward them. I need to remind myself I've received God's grace that I shouldn't deserve for, so that I can give grace and forgive others. May God help me to walk through this process and transform me, so that I can make different in my family and my society. Thanks to God for his grace, and thanks to God that he has a big heart for everyone. I'm not deserve to his grace, but I'm so thankful to receive it, and I want to be like him, so I can give grace to others. Thank you Jesus for this truth and the breakthrough that he has done in me. Glory to God forever, Gade

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