This is the year 2016, my life has been far from journaling in English almost 2 years. There were so much going on in the year 2015 where I had seen God's goodness within my own life, my family, and my ministry. I have came to the place of surrender to who God is, and I don't want to be the same person as before. God is walking with me through each day, good time and bad time, and I am glad to learn how to trust Him more and more. Since last year until now I discover that I have held many fears in my life, and it stopped me from being brave and being initiative. God knew at this point is a good timing to deal with me about it, and I want to be changed by him. I discovered that I have fear of man and fear of death, and my goal of this year I want to ask God to remove those fears and replace it with his perfect love. I don't want to be stuck in the same spot as last year, and I expect God to make me new heart. Let's see what happen in next 3-4 months.
Have you ever wondered how many challenged you need to go through each year? What about your hope for future? Will it ever come true when it seemly nothing can make it happen? I want to say that I'm good enough, I've been through many thing that I can stand firm and don't lose my mind. I don't care what happen in the future, for I know my God is able to do. I fail to totally trust that my circumstances is not a big deal. Once again, I have to encourage myself through the book of Philippians, for it talks about being rejoice. I admit how worry I am and try to work out in my own way. I saw a picture of myself building up such a strong mountain to conquer all the optical, but when I worshiped God during the Conference, I just realized my mountain become its optical for taking me to another level of trusting God. God told me that he will make my mountain flat, and I'm in this wilderness, so that I'll realize who God is and how amazing he is. A big challenging fo
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