Since I was in Leadership Development Course in Cebu, Philippines, I was thinking many time that I want to put my experience and thoughts in my blog, but somehow I couldn't manage myself to reflect and do it properly. Today I thought it is time for me to finally do it. There were many wonderful thing happen to me personally throughout the course, and the main part of it involved with my marriage life as well. God removed my doubts about my childhood which became an significant change in my life, and as I knew God is working in me through listening to his voice this year particularly. The challenge for me is about how I would stand firm and put it in a practical way to my life even it is after the course. I graduated from this course a month already, and I evaluated myself about it. I didn't really do good as I had expected myself when I was in the course. One thing though I learned from my marriage life, the challenge is how my husband and I will become a good marriage couple, since we are married not long ago. Lately, we have difficulty to understand each other's need, then 2 days ago I found out that if we keep connection going in a good way both physically and emotionally, then it helps us to feel love and open our hearts for each other. At this point I realize it is the same with my relationship with God, when I stay close to him, I can hear and recognize his voice easily, but when I was quite far off, it is hard for me to really feel that God is near or even hear his voice is quite a challenge. Stay connecting to each other is quite a challenge and it requires hard work for it which I have to commit myself to do it for the sake of our relationship. I have seen my selfishness as I want to be free and do whatever I want to, but for the sake of relationship I must lay down my right to do whatever I want to. Same as I have to lay down my right before God so that I can be connect to him and hear his voice clearer. Thanks God for reveal his heart and how I can stay close to him. I don't want to do my own thing anymore, I want to do exactly what and how he wants me to do. I trust in his good plan and his characteristic.
Have you ever wondered how many challenged you need to go through each year? What about your hope for future? Will it ever come true when it seemly nothing can make it happen? I want to say that I'm good enough, I've been through many thing that I can stand firm and don't lose my mind. I don't care what happen in the future, for I know my God is able to do. I fail to totally trust that my circumstances is not a big deal. Once again, I have to encourage myself through the book of Philippians, for it talks about being rejoice. I admit how worry I am and try to work out in my own way. I saw a picture of myself building up such a strong mountain to conquer all the optical, but when I worshiped God during the Conference, I just realized my mountain become its optical for taking me to another level of trusting God. God told me that he will make my mountain flat, and I'm in this wilderness, so that I'll realize who God is and how amazing he is. A big challenging fo
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