Love~Faith~Hope

I'm sitting in OT Overview class with the SBS, and we're studying the book of Job. One truth stands out to my heart is that God is our real God whom we should trust with our whole heart. He can do all thing, everything is under his control, and his wisdom is greater than us as a human. His blessings and his love don't go along with our good deeds. Once again I come to the point of confession and repentance that I can't do everything and I can't get all thing under my control. God is the greatest and he is worthy of our praise. There were many time I try to do thing in my own way and my own strength, sometimes I don't understand why God put me in some situation or I question him how long I should be patient. Now I realize that it's not my business to make God answer all those question of my life, but I should totally trust God because he is only one who is in control of all thing even human's sin. Praise God that I don't need to do thing on my own....

The Grace of God is not only for us to receive the salvation and to be justified, but to strengthen us to endure all the hardship and perseverance in our ministry. One of our speakers taught us in 2 Timothy, and she putted up a good point to remind ourselves again. I was struggling to find what my calling is and how I should carry on the fully heart of serving for his Kingdom. Studying SBS and being staff in this school, my perspective slowly changes, and I admit that God is shaping me into his usable jar of clay. Once I realize that I just want to be an ordinary person who walks after God’s heart and fully commit to God as my Lord, but when I ask myself what I’m doing. Does it result a good thing in other life? Shall I keep moving on or perseverance in the thing that I’m doing? I’m totally lost in the midst of those questions. I’ve been giving up in many of thing, because I don’t want to deal with people, and I only want to do thing in my own way, so this is why I value myself with...

We're just done the book of Philippians, and once again I saw how Paul's heart beats for those whom he loves. Philippians faced many problems in their church, and there was a false teaching about receiving law to make a complete salvation. Somehow through this book, I felt God affirm me as a precious person that God's made, and he totally gave himself up just for me. I'm not worthy to receive it, but it's not what God thought. I looked back into my personal life, and I found so many thing that I dealt with a bad attitude. I valued people on what they do or blame them on what they've done. This timeless truth just came to me to reminds me that I should give others grace while I'm needing God's grace for my own life. However, my walk with God still continue, and I know that God hasn't finish with me, but I want to recommit myself to give grace and room for people's failures. Whatsoever is an effect to me, I'll take it as a lesson of growing i...

Once for a while I'm down in the deep depression of how the world see me. Lots of people express their own thoughts of me and my relationship. What am I value it between what God challenge me or other people's opinion? There is a Scriptures mentions about receiving the advice from the wise, and yes I absolutely admit it as it's necessary for my growth in both relationship and God. But I do need to meditate on those advice. Some of them are not the way of loving me but destruction. I say this because I felt it is. How can you trust in someone who spoke nicely about you up front of you, but speak their very own thoughts how bad they don't like you.. It's just a human and yet need grace of God to give other grace. I've learned that I need to extend grace to those kind of people,too. I'll choose a good thing for myself, and I'll keep looking up to Jesus and reflect on his true word. Jesus is sincere both up front of me and behind my back. I only need to keep...

Got to read in 1 Samuel chapter 20 today, and I felt a real commitment of friendship between Jonathan and David. Jonathan told David that he loves David as he loves himself, and he is truly believe that David is the man of God, for he chose to encourage and support David, who is his dad's enemy. One thing I see it so clear is that Jonathan is willing to follow God's plan, and he believe that God is with David who will be the next King of Israel. It's hard to see the son refuses to protect his own dad and choose to help dad's enemy to sit on his dad's throne. This can be a good example to me, but it's also a big challenge for me. Will I ever betrayed someone whom God sets for his plan because I choose to stand on someone else' side? Will I value God's plan less than man's pleasure? I can confess that I've done it so many time, and I've to realign myself to God again and again. The best part of being God's child is that I don't have to ...

Hi, I've been away from this journal since I was in the School of Biblical Studies. It took about 4 months and half to study every books in the New Testament. I was impressed with the way God uses his message to speak to us in nowaday. The more I learned from problem in the original reader's time, the more I see how great is my God because he used a wonderful people to write a letter to people whom He loves so much. I got a confident that God won't ignore my needs and myself because of his promise, and I learned to trust in him more and more. I planned to be a school staff next year because I felt there are so much more I should learn and I want these truth nail down my heart even more. I want to be part of making Thai people speak the truth to others. God's plan in working effectively in Thailand, and I'm honored to join in his team.. He is such a wonderful God! Thanks to all of you who have been praying for me and supporting in many ways. I'm blessed because ...

"I have told you this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.~ John 16:33, NLT" Look back in the past few year, I've seen many trails and sorrows over myself and others. People who lost their beloved one are in deep of sorrows. The difficulty of the country issues and economic problem that causes the whole world to be concern about ceasing income. Lots of challenging take place, and we handle it well sometimes. I found this Scriptures alive in my heart when it speaks about 'peace'. Through the difficulty of situation, I really need peace to be in my heart so that I can pressing on and be normal person. Just the last day of the year 2008 I was depressed about my family situation. One person texts me message to say happy new year, but the message encouraged me so much as it says "may peace, love and hope are in you today, tomorrow and always".. I'm totally...